Its a feeling I can hardly describe.. Life has not been easy and waiting to come out of darkness was a long wait....
A new sun in my life has dawned and I am very happy and ready to tell my story now...I want to reach out to ladies just like me dealing with Infertility as if it has no end...
I will tell my story in parts...and tell you what not to do....But theres one thing i want to shout from Rooftops...NEVER LOOSE HOPE... Well !! a veteran of 5 years fighting stranger in the dark..never knowing when it will end...but never loosing hope ever...brings me here...to talk to you....
I am 8 weeks far along...I am sceptic...and i am scared like hell... some mornings I feel what if its not there...sometimes i wake up and know its there....
I pray in my own way...I dont follow any religion but believe in a true power...and this faith helps me to come this far...
Good things first :
Yesterday for the first time ..after a 2 cancelled apointments by the doc office leading to loads of anxiety...I got the best gift of my life.. hearing to that strong heart beat....like a small chuk chuk train...chugging in my world... i could barely stop my tears..hubby who had refused to look at the gestational sac the first time @6 weeks...had expressions of confusion to amazement to wide grin... i wanted to hug n kiss my doctor...she is a wonderful lady..though i did not trust her when i started my treatment ..i only trust her now....
Before all this happenend i always dreamt of how many things i need to do...now i am calm...I am bloated..puffed and heavy but I am
happy!!.
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